Can’t sleep.
There are so many things on my mind right now, making it very difficult for me to fall asleep. So I’m hoping that getting some of them out will help clear some space in my head and I’ll finally be able to drift off.
Back to work tomorrow. Need to put my name down for some serious overtime. I’m thinking an extra 2 hours on Tuesday and Friday, and an extra 4 on Wednesday and Thursday, making those 12 hour days. I told myself I’d never work 12 hours, but desperate times call for desparate measures, as they say.
I think I’m seeing Cassie after work. Must remember to bring an extra slice of the chocolate cake I made today. Oh, and also can’t forget to pack the macaroni cheese I made to have for lunch.
David wants to see me tomorrow night too, and come see the place before he moves in. I need to be brutally honest with him- tell him that the longer he delays moving in, the more he’s screwing me over. I’m having enough doubts about the whole situation as it is.
I’ve never been this broke before. Not since I started working full time, anyway. One of my friends even called earlier with an idea to help me out. Even if that idea involves lying to Centrelink and would only result in an extra $15-30 a week, I may have to give it some thought.
It’s really cold. I need to invest in a heater. After I’ve paid rent and my car rego and the gas bill and that stupid fucking parking fine. Plus I need to pay Rob back for the Tom Dickins dinner thing. And there are birthdays coming up.
When I lie on my side, I can hear my heartbeat in my ear. That, and a line from an Anastacia song repeating in my head, along with all of the above, are making sleep seem impossible.
I’m gonna try again. Goodnight.
